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Saturday, July 6, 2013

I don't know about you, but I'm feeling 22.

I kind of resented that Taylor Swift's song "22" hit iTunes a few months after I turned 23, but I downloaded it and listened to it on repeat anyway.

Partially because — hello — that song is pop gold.

And partially because, if feeling 22 means feeling "happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time," then I still felt 22 at 23.

I still feel 22 at 24, actually.

I'm just now doing the post-grad thing. Grad school delayed but did not prevent it. The floundering feeling that first hit my college friends two years ago is hitting me now as I apply for jobs and try to figure out where my life is headed.

It's funny how some days I wake up and feel as if I've got every opportunity in the world at my fingertips and some days I wake up and feel as if I might flounder around forever.

I'm finding my early 20s to be marked with contradiction. I'm trying to be a grown-up, but I still feel like a kid. There are far more decisions and responsibilities and difficulties in this stage of life than I ever expected. All the possibilities are exciting when they're not terrifying.

People are quick to give advice to new grads — about life and jobs and relationships and growing up. But perhaps the most helpful thing I've been told (by T-Swift and a few others) is that everybody feels confused at 22 — and 23 and 24 and beyond, for that matter. You don't have to have everything figured out. School's over, but you're still learning. And that's okay.


  1. I've never really thought about that line of this song but you just wrote the story of my life. And I'm only 20 haha! I totally feel you on the my whole life feels full of contradictions. I totally just found my favourite post of the week! I'm so glad I found your blog :)

  2. Yay, thanks! This is why I love the internet!

  3. So I think this post was written just for me. Seriously! I all too often get loads of advice (all good, but just lots of it!) and feel like I should just know what I'm doing next--and I don't. So thank you for sharing this and reminding me that I'm not only one with this feeling!

    p.s. I LOVE your blog + blog design. Especially the gif in your header with the Target photo. Such good photo to have. :)

  4. Yay, thanks, girl! You're so sweet.

  5. Aaron Delane WilkinsonJuly 17, 2013 at 12:47 PM

    lemme just say...it doesn't stop. i feel the same way at 28...with a job, a wife, a kid, a house, etc. Hope that's not too depressing to hear. I asked my dad recently what he wanted to be when he grew up (and he is about 5 years from retirement) and he said, "I dont know." It's a journey.


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