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Saturday, July 6, 2013

I don't know about you, but I'm feeling 22.

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I kind of resented that Taylor Swift's song "22" hit iTunes a few months after I turned 23, but I downloaded it and listened to it on repeat anyway.

Partially because — hello — that song is pop gold.

And partially because, if feeling 22 means feeling "happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time," then I still felt 22 at 23.

I still feel 22 at 24, actually.

I'm just now doing the post-grad thing. Grad school delayed but did not prevent it. The floundering feeling that first hit my college friends two years ago is hitting me now as I apply for jobs and try to figure out where my life is headed.

It's funny how some days I wake up and feel as if I've got every opportunity in the world at my fingertips and some days I wake up and feel as if I might flounder around forever.

I'm finding my early 20s to be marked with contradiction. I'm trying to be a grown-up, but I still feel like a kid. There are far more decisions and responsibilities and difficulties in this stage of life than I ever expected. All the possibilities are exciting when they're not terrifying.

People are quick to give advice to new grads — about life and jobs and relationships and growing up. But perhaps the most helpful thing I've been told (by T-Swift and a few others) is that everybody feels confused at 22 — and 23 and 24 and beyond, for that matter. You don't have to have everything figured out. School's over, but you're still learning. And that's okay.

5 comments:

  1. I've never really thought about that line of this song but you just wrote the story of my life. And I'm only 20 haha! I totally feel you on the my whole life feels full of contradictions. I totally just found my favourite post of the week! I'm so glad I found your blog :)

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  2. Yay, thanks! This is why I love the internet!

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  3. So I think this post was written just for me. Seriously! I all too often get loads of advice (all good, but just lots of it!) and feel like I should just know what I'm doing next--and I don't. So thank you for sharing this and reminding me that I'm not only one with this feeling!

    p.s. I LOVE your blog + blog design. Especially the gif in your header with the Target photo. Such good photo to have. :)

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  4. Yay, thanks, girl! You're so sweet.

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  5. Aaron Delane WilkinsonJuly 17, 2013 at 12:47 PM

    lemme just say...it doesn't stop. i feel the same way at 28...with a job, a wife, a kid, a house, etc. Hope that's not too depressing to hear. I asked my dad recently what he wanted to be when he grew up (and he is about 5 years from retirement) and he said, "I dont know." It's a journey.

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