Well, guess what.
I got it all finished.
“I dreamed a dream in time gone by / When hope was high / And life worth living … But there are dreams that cannot be / And there are storms we cannot weather / I had a dream my life would be / So different from this hell I'm living / So different now from what it seemed / Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.”
"The transforming moment in Christian conversion comes when we realize that even God has left us. We then discover it was not God, but our image of God, that abandoned us. This frees us to discover more of the mystery of God than we knew. Only then is change possible.”